About Misc. Exits Entries

 

Its my life, its my book,its my Diary.
I will express my feelings and thoughts, my daily ramblings and fears...
Life is never easy. Don't give up because its just the weight of the world.
Smile lots... ^^

Heads up...

 

Saturday, July 7, 2007

.:. ~ Its how much you mean to me ~ .:.

Dearest Diary,
I know I am not that close to you. I know no matter how hard I reach out to you, theres always a road block. When you reject my smses and calls, I feel really lonely. Others play a part in my life, greatly. But still, its you that mean alot to me. I can't express the feelings in words I have for you. Am I like going through like what 'they' always say? suffering? Or isit me just torturing myself? My dad's going to court again. Again you know? And he doesn't seem to care a damn about it. My mother works day and night but somehow, somewhat... I always quarrel with her. I know she care and loves my brother more than me. I don't feel anyone loving me. I feel dead. I feel faithless. I feel sinful.
You may sing for the lord day and night 24/7 but if your heart is empty, you will suffer, greatly. When life is really at its down, it will be difficult to look up again. Remember those days that when you're out enjoying yourself with your friends? Somehow, you will still feel lonely inside. Because you know she isn't talking to you, She isn't caring for you, She isn't there saying; "I'll always be there for you".... Isn't that what I want? Tell me, why is it that I feel like that?
Burn in hell.

- and I continue to think. [9:28 PM]

About

Name: Melvin Peter Lam
Nick: Angelic Baby
School: Simei ITE College
birthday: 06/20/89

: hobbies :
Floorball
Basketball
Badminton
Chatting
Cycling

: Church Group :
Savlve Regina Choir of Nativity Church
 

: My kind of Music :
Hear my Prayer, O Lord

: Character :
Missing important targets in life
Emo
Losing faith
Very Crappy
Iis difficult to explain
Negative